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"Olly, c’up How’s that for fucking overreacting I restwheel as a few tears drop ontosince ere seventeen We’re twenty three now Realistically, we should’ve only dated for two years That was the first time he cheated on me Since then I’ve lost count of howhim back and I should respectwith Blade is all I know I’ve never been with anyone else The thought of not having him in my life terrifiesto keep destroyingwith Blade means I’ll sit in restaurants alone for the rest of ht catch some freaky STD from him…then I want no part of it

I stor box tucked underBlade’s stuff He doesn’t live witharound my apartins to sink in When I’ I run downstairs and place the box on the driveway I’ve never gone as far as to actually res before, but this tih I turn around, but a set of headlights pulling in to the driveway makes me turn back to the road It’s a taxi

Great

Blade jumps out of the backseat and pulls a handful of cash from the front pocket of his denis over to h his dark, blond hair "Don’t do this I love you"

I turn onvery well that if he flashes me those boyish diy frissons through rasphbors can’t hear

He doesn’t release his grip His eyes glare into mine as he leans close so I can feel and smell his hot, alcohol filled breath on lance at his small, blue eyes and then down his face to his thin lips Pink lipstick along his jaw line catches aze follows the sets of lips down his neck, before disappearing underneath the blue collar of his green polo shirt

"You are disgusting" I spit

He squeezes my arm harder and I wince as my muscle forcefully compresses under my flesh "What would you do without me? Where would you be without me?"

I snatch my arm back "I don’t need you anyhs loudly, tilting his head back and exposing his teeth Apparently, I said the joke of the year "You won’t find anyone that’ll be as interested in you as I a to offer anyone I’ that has ever happened to you"

Ouch, to think that this bitter person is supposed to besensation builds up in ue to the roof of my ree

"If I’m such a bad catch then why are you so upset?" I ask, htly

"I’m not upset I’ back and when you do I’ to slam my door in your face"

I turn away from him If I don’t leave now, I’ll cry and I don’t want him to see me cry I make my way up the small, white stairs and just before I step it into my apartment his voice calls out one last tiirls and I picked up two of theht!"

I slam my door and slide down the hard wood How can someone who used to be so sweet be so dao where I wanted to be in life I would have said ‘anywhere as long as I have Blade’ If you asked me that same question now, I’d reply ‘anywhere I don’t see Blade’s stupid face or hear his stupid voice’ My chest heaves painfully as tears escape my eyes I let the them back since the restaurant and I can’t anymore I crawl on e rooe to pull myself ontocheeks After a fewbecause I broke up with Blade I’ because I know this isn’t the end of it He’ll keep co me down until I crack and accept hi to happen this tier now and I’ve been preparing for our inevitable breakup for a long time now Just because I choose to weardoesn’t hts and read and write does notI’ll show him that I’m not dependant on him I’ll show him that I can’t be controlled I’ll treat hi treated like I’ , I wake up extra early so I can get a longer session in at the gyym is only a few blocks down, but I drive anyway Why would I want to burnup early this ht I ended up switching my phone off after eleven pm and aout right now and it serves hiht

Even after I switched off , trying to pin point the exact moment Blade turned into a douche I couldn’t and I wonder if he’s been like that since high school and I’ve just been too blind to notice?

I pull up in front of the gyer seat Inside it has a towel, a pair of heels, a nice black business dress, some make-up and a hair brush After et dressed for work Since the gyured I’d knock two birds with one stone this her and cover my belly button with ht it keeps sliding back up and exposing yyly of sweat and voy to decide where I want to start today Usually, I start with the tread a little er out on I have a lot of hate that I want to belt out ofwhere two staunch o with sos and I see…hi so dark and sinister deep down inat him like an idiot Strands from his short, black hair stick to his forehead with sweat and as soon as I notice, he runs his taped fingers through it, sending tiny droplets of sweat in every direction My oes dry and I want to run e, searing heat across the back of les between hs as I watch his sweaty chest rise and fall in a deep pant He glances up at the ceiling and closes his eyes, forcing his Adahtly His broad shoulders and one side of his chest are covered in intricate tattoos Across his hip is another tattoo--it’s a sentence, but I’aze falls onto his black drawstring pants that hang off his narrow hips, exposing his delicious ‘V’ shape I’ve never seen a ht out of a azine--six pack and all

He flexes his fingers and bounces lightly on his toes before he balls his hands into fists His hten and twitch, work and relax, as he slahtens and vibrates with pleasure every tiether as he swings his large,where I stand I look at his face, his eyes are dark and his face serious, like the bag in front of him is someone he hates Involuntarily, my eyes fall back to his ‘V’ shape and I ponder what exactly is under the thin fabric The thought alone is enough for desire to start pooling betweenon his pants isn’t swinging back and forth any my eyes up over his slim hips and a narroaist, a chest doused in a thin layer of clean sweat, well-formed traps and lastly, a pair of dark, brown eyes that arelooking directly at me