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The dude wasn’t lying He’d done it once

The condoroan of pure horror, because I’d been so callous with him I hadn’t ether a lot differently than I had

What the hell kind of shitty psychAnd I hadn’t allowed for the possibility that his perspective was different thanIt wasn’t as easy in jeans and Chuck Ts, but I soon found raveyard in front of Rafe’s favorite headstone If you needed a little perspective in your life, a ceood a place as any to find it I hadn’t done or said anything right since Septe hard, actually I was not an i to the thuer who’d been flattened by a tree

Killed by a log hewhich would be the best way to apologize

Maybe it had been a long, crappy year so far But the tiet over ht, I worked the dinner shift Thankfully, I was on prep duty, dicing onions and garlic in a corner of the kitchen where I didn’t have to talk to anyone Because I was in no ed toI wanted to do Ever

Even , I’d turned down sex with the one person whoat me I’d actually said no

What I’d done seeood reason -- ould have been awesome today would have made me feel like dirt tomorrow

Bella was a friend (I hoped she still was, anyway) And I had it pretty bad for her If I declared us friends with bennies, or fuck buddies, or whatever, that would be dishonest There was just no way I could have sex with Bella, and then walk away like it didn’t reat deal

My brain chased this impasse around and around for several hours Bella wasn’t just a girl I wanted She was the girl I wanted There was only one solution, but I didn’t like my chances She and I could have lots of sex if she’d be with ain, shaking irl like Bella could have anyone Even if she did decide to break her rule against relationships, I o years younger I played the wrong sport I was too conservative, apparently

And arlic after every shift

Also, I wore a paper hat