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Anyway Whatever It's not good

'Oh!' she says, staring at the floor 'Gosh! Uht I'd come home The office was just too … too awful …'

I tail off, and there's thesilence for a few uess you saw it,' I say at last

'Yes, I saw it,' says Lissy, still staring at the floor, 'And I …' She clears her throat 'I just wanted to say that … that if you want me to move out, then I will'

A lump comes to my throat I knew it After twenty-one years, our friendship is over One tiny secret co

'It's OK,' I say, trying not to burst into tears 'I'll move out'

'No!' says Lissy aardly 'I'll move out This isn't your fault, E you on'

'What?' I stare at her 'Lissy, you haven't been leading me on!'

'Yes I have' She looks stricken 'I feel terrible I just never realized you had … those kind of feelings'

'I don't!'

'But I can see it all now! I've been walking around half-dressed, no wonder you were frustrated!'

'I wasn't frustrated,' I say quickly 'Lissy, I'm not a lesbian'

'Bisexual, then Or "multi-oriented" Whatever term you want to use'

'I'm not bisexual, either! Or rabs my hand 'Don't be ashamed of your sexuality And I promise, I'll support you a hundred per cent, whatever choice you decide to make--'

'Lissy, I'm not bisexual!' I cry 'I don't need support! I just had one dream, OK? It wasn't a fantasy, it was just a weird dream, which I didn't intend to have, and it doesn't mean I'm a lesbian, and it doesn't '

'Oh' There's silence Lissy looks taken aback 'Oh, right I thought it was a … a … you know' She clears her throat 'That you wanted to …'

'No! I just had a drea pause, during which Lissy looks intently at her fingernails, and I study the buckle of my watch

'So, did we actually …' says Lissy at last

Oh God