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Alanda reaches over and touches my face "You returned to this third density out of love If you made a mistake, Sita, it was only out of love You mustn&039;t blame yourself"

Already we are over India I nod to Rajastan, desert o," I say "I aht not know is that I feel I never left that tiny village I ahora sacrifice that invoked Yaksha into Amba&039;s dead womb" I pause "I held him as an unborn infant in my hand He was just a trace of movement beneath the hard skin of a corpse I had a knife inhis life before it could begin" A wave of weariness sweeps over me and I lower s o of the past"

"But you are sending o of"

"But this is the only way you will be able to be finished with it Trust us, Sita We do this for you as much as for ourselves Our futures are entwined,"

I look up and smile "Just because I almost killed you doesn&039;t mean I believe you would lie tome like that"

"It was the only way to meet you"

"It was a test?" I ask

"In a "

"You could have defended yourself from me"

Alanda turns back to the view "I counted on your coel"

I have to laugh "You are as bad as Seymour He sees h "I would love it if he ith us now"

Alanda is thoughtful "In a sense, he is He is alith you"

Her remark strikes deeply into me "Why is that so true?"

Alanda stares at the Earth, India "You will see"

A short tiins to shrink as we pull away from it at a tre into a well of blackness The floor turns solid as the sides becoh the saucer&039;s view screens and I feel their warmth There is no sense of acceleration, however I see the lare of the Earth But then that planet, the only home I can reins to diminish in size and brilliance Alanda turns away and strolls to the center of the craft But ripped by the stars ahead of us

"I&039;ve had these dreams," I say to Alanda and Gaia both Gaia stands at a respectful distance, silent, peaceful, absorbed in a conte?ine Yet I knoatches hts I continue, "In thealaxy toward the Pleia?des Ray would usually be with me, but sometimes it would be my husband, Rama Never were both with me, but I think that&039;s because--in my dreams--they were always the same person Anyould be excited and filled with a sense of adventure We would knoe reached the Pleiades, that all our friends would be waiting for us We even knew that Krishna would be there, to welco on Earth Most of all, in these dreams, I would be happy, and it would be hard to wake from them" I pause "Were they just dreams, Alanda?"

"Or were they real?" she asks "Maybe they were a little of both"

I look at her "Are you fros "We are each from God"

I listen to the silence "It&039;s time, isn&039;t it?"

"Yes In a few ht call a hyperjump At that time, as I explained before, it is i to a time just before you traveled to Landulf s castle"

"It was Dante who ledtoward her "Should I think of him?"

Alanda pauses "The moment you reappear is en?tirely up to you"

I force a shs on ood to see Dante again," I say "A little coesture to the center of the floor "Should I sit down and close my eyes?"

Alanda takes my hand "Lie down and close them, Sita"

I do as she says, but she continues to hold my hand I open my eyes and smile at her "Don&039;t worry," I say "It is justback in tihtly "But if you die back then"

I understand "I won&039;t exist today?"

She sighs "There is sos--they can i out of most prisons"

"They can imprison your soul, in their realm Make you one of the?"

"Billions of years You would only be set free when they are set free"

"Negative beings attain freedoative path meets the positive In the end, all find God" She squeezes my hand "But you could be lost for the life of this universe"

I cannot conceive of anything worse

"How can he trap me?" I ask

"He is subtle, and we cannot penetrate his mind But he acts much as a mirror does He stands before you He shows you what you are But only the parts of you that can be used to destroy you"

"He can cause me to destroy myself?"

"Exactly Be wary He can kill you without your permission But he can only pervert you to his cause if you enter into an agreement with him out of free will"

"But I would never do that"

Alanda seems unsure Her expression is anxious

She leans over and kisses my cheek There is a tear on her face and I reach up to wipe it away but she grabs my other hand

"You are loved," she whispers "Don&039;t forget that"

"I know I know you" I close o of ain, a shift inside

But inside, outside--they have lost their

Into horror unspeakable, yes, and ined