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&039;Yes and no On the one hand, the super-olf is in the Rainbow Strea But on the other, it is not possible to enter it at all, because the Rainbow Stream is simply an illusion But this is only an apparent contradiction, because you and this world are one and the sa Okay, carry on&039;

&039;The real super-olf is a heavenly being A heavenly being never loses her connection with the heavens&039;

&039;What does thatbut dust But when a heavenly being sees the dust, she reht that makes the dust visible While a tailless ht falls That&039;s hen a heavenly being dies, she becoht But when a tailless ht, dust,&039; he said, &039;so there is so there after all! There is soot one, Ginger I&039;ve felt that pretty strongly just recently Or will you tell ?&039;

&039;This personality, with all its quirks and stupidities siht of my mind And the ht that I recognize over and over again&039;

&039;Now you&039;re saying "my mind" But you only just said it&039;s not yours&039;

&039;That&039;s the way language works It&039;s the root frorows And ere-creatures suffer fro It&039;s not possible to open your le over words&039;

&039;All right But the personality that dances like a doll - that&039;s you, isn&039;t it?&039;

&039;No I don&039;t think of this personality as ht that ht and the doll are only metaphors, and you shouldn&039;t clutch at theer,&039; he said &039;You&039;ve certainly been studying these questions for a long timeSo tell h,&039; I said and blushed &039;And about the dog and the lion - don&039;t be offended, please It&039;s a classical allegory, and a very ancient one, honestly The dog watches the stick, but the lion watches the person who threw it By the hen you understand that, it makes it much easier to read our press&039;

&039;I understand about the dogs and the lions, you needn&039;t have told ain,&039; he replied sarcastically &039;And I know about the press without you Better tell uiltily

&039;We foxes keep one eye on the stick and the other on the person who throws it Because we&039;re not very strong creatures, and we don&039;t just want to improve our souls, ant to live for a while too That&039;s the reason we&039;re slightly cross-eyed &039;

&039;I&039;ll have to toss a couple of sticks your way and see which way you look&039;

&039;You&039;re in good foreneral&039;

Alexander scratched his chin

&039;Right, where&039;s the main conclusion?&039; he asked

&039;What conclusion?&039;

&039;You kno to control all this? So that we can benefit from it&039;

&039;It&039;s rather hard to control,&039; I said

&039;Why?&039;

&039;You&039;ll run yourself ragged trying to find the controller&039;

&039;Yes, it looks that way all right,&039; he said &039;I&039; with it?&039;

&039;The Rainbow Stream, the super-olf - that&039;s all fine Let&039;s say we&039;ve dealt with control too But I still don&039;t understand theWho creates the world? God?&039;

&039;We do,&039; I said &039;More than that, we create God too&039;

&039;That&039;s taking things a bit far, Ginger,&039; he chuckled &039;You&039;ll do anything to get by without God What do we create the world with? Our tails?&039;

I froze on the spot

It&039;s hard to describe that second All the surhts, all ether into a blindingly clear picture of the truth I still didn&039;t understand all the consequences of this epiphany, but I already knew that now theIwith you?&039; he asked &039;Are you feeling unwell?&039;

&039;No,&039; I said, and forced myself to sht now Please don&039;t distract me It&039;s very, very important&039;

The world works in ato protect frogs from children&039;s cruelty, adults tell children not to crush them because that will make it rain - and the result is that it rains all sus one after another And soht to explain the truth to someone else, and suddenly you understand it yourself

But then, for foxes the latter case is probably the rule rather than the exception As I&039;ve already said, in order to understand so we foxes have to explain it to someone This results from the specific qualities of our intellect, which is specifically designed to i the features of any culture To put it more simply, it is our essential nature to constantly pretend When we explain so that we have already understood it all And since we are very clever creatures, we usually really do have to understand it, whether ish to or not They say that&039;s what makes the silver hairs appear in our tails

When I pretend, I a in a perfectly naturalturns out farsincerely After all, what does behaving sincerelyyour essential nature directly in your behaviour And if it is my essential nature to sienuine sincerity lies through simulation I don&039;t mean to say by this that I never behave spontaneously On the contrary, I simulate spontaneity with all the sincerity that I have inabout so very simple, but it makes me seem like a dishonest creature with a double bottom But it&039;s not like that I actually don&039;t have any botto at all, she attains to the highest truth at the very moment when she pretends she has attained to it And the best way to do this is in discussion with a less-developed being But when I was talking to Alexander, I was not thinking aboutas hard as I could to help hi, incomprehensible paradoxBut this paradox is the principal law of life

I had approached the truth gradually:

1 as I observed Alexander, I realized that a olf directs his hypnotic iests to hi into a wolf, and after that he really does turn into one

2 during the chicken hunt I noticed thatits fluence atto ht be some kind of feedback loop that made me into a fox I was already only two steps away from the truth, but I still couldn&039;t see it

3 in the course of my explanations, I told Alexander that he and this world were one and the sahtens by their real names It was only then that I attained to the truth

I and the world are one and the sa to myself withsecond, I was suggesting this entire world!

When I was left alone, I sat in the lotus position and withdrew into a state of profound concentration I don&039;t kno much time passed - perhaps several days In a state like that there is no particular difference between a day and an hour Now that I had seen the way things were, I understood why I had failed to spot this uroborus before (how apt that I had repeated that word all the ti anything but the truth The hypnotic i at my mind was the entire world Or rather, I had taken this impulse for the world

I had always suspected that Stephen Hawking did not understand the words &039;relict radiation&039; that occur on every second page of his books Relict radiation is not a radio signal that can be captured using complex and expensive equipment Relict radiation is the whole world that we see around us, no s

Now that I had understood exactly hoas creating the world, I had to learn to control this effect soy, I got nowhere I ran through all the techniques that I knew - fro the mountain barbarians of Tibet to the sacred fire of the microcos worked - it was like trying to ainst it with my shoulder

And then I remembered about the key Yes indeed, the Yellow Master had ht that it was si of the hidden nature of things But if I&039;d blundered so terribly concerning the most essential point, I could have been mistaken here as well, couldn&039;t I? What could it be, this key? I didn&039;t know So I still didn&039;t understand anything, then?

My concentration was disrupted and hts started to wander I re patiently in the next roole sound, apprehensive of disturbing ht of him provoked a ave of love

And then at last I understood as absolutely the er than this love - and since I was creating the world with er in the entire world

2 in the streay that radiated from my tail, and which my mind took for the world, love was totally absent - and that hy the world appeared to me in the way that it was

3 love was the key that I had been unable to find

How had I failed to understand that i my tail&039;s relict radiation froain, visualized an slowly lowering it towards my tail When I had lowered the heart of fire al incredible happened Insiderainbow of colour appeared I did not perceive it with ed to s was like a strea It sparkled with every possible shade of colour, and I could step into the caress of that kindly light In order for the shi aroundit beyond the point of the Great Limit that is located just three inches from the base of a fox&039;s tail I could have done it But I sensed that afterwards, aht, I would never again be able to find this tiny city and Alexander who had been left behind in it We had to leave this place together - otheras our love worth? After all, he was the one who had givenit

I decided to tell hiet up - while I was sitting in the lotus position, s had becoled to my feet and walked towards the other room It was dark in there

&039;Sashenka,&039; I called &039;Hey! Sasha! Where are you?&039;

Nobody answered I walked in and turned on the light The roo on the wooden crate that served us as a table I picked it up and, screwing up ht, I read this:

Adele!

I took no notice of the fact that you were concealing your age, although recently I&039;d begun to suspect you were more than seventeen - you&039;re far too sht, maybe you were just well preserved and really you were already twenty-five or even alirls I was prepared for you to be a little more than thirty I could probably even have come to terms with forty But one thousand two hundred years! It&039;s best if I just tell you straight out - I can never have sex with you again ForgiveMaybe I am blind compared to you But we can&039;t help the e are

I&039;ret this decision Or not even have tioes the way I intend, the first thing I&039;ll do is clarify a few issues that have co the issues that have colorious power you have inadvertently helped me to obtain to the service of anization, against which you are so unjustly prejudiced And thank you for all the ah probably not co Time will shoho the real superolf is Goodbye for ever And thank you for calling me Grey One to the very end

Sasha the Black

I remember that second There was no confusion I had always understood I couldn&039;t keep him near me for ever, that this ht it would be so painful

My little ht in tender resignation Some day you&039;ll come to your senses all the same But what a shame you will never learn the hPerhaps I should leave you a note? It will be longer than yours, and when you read it to the end you&039;ll understand exactly what it was I didn&039;t get a chance to tell you before you left How else can I possibly repay you for the freedoht I&039;ll write a book, and sooner or later it&039;s bound to reach you You&039;ll learn froarchs and the public prosecutors, the liberals and conservatives, the queers and straights, the Internet communists, olves in shoulder-straps and portfolio investors wail and gnash their teeth And perhaps not just you, but other noble beings who have a heart and a tail will be able to learn so useful fro to me what the real score is Thank you for love

I couldn&039;t hold back any longer - the tears gushed in a torrent downon the wooden crate and looking at the white square of paper with the neat lines of his words on it Until the very last day I had called hi He didn&039;t need any pity

That was it Two lonely heartsOne told the other she was older than the city around, the other confessed that he had claws on his dick For a short while they twined their tails together, spoke of the highest truth and howled at theat sea

Je ne regrette rien But I know that I shall never again be as happy as I was in nineteen-sixties Hong Kong on the edge of the Bitsevsky forest, with a carefree bliss in my heart and his black tail in my hand

When this book was althe pedals, and I&039;d sat down for a rest on one of thein the eht by the kids ju ti them For some reason the saddles on all their bikes were set very low Probably special bikes for juht But in every other way they were ordinary mountain bikes When I turned away fro beside ed a lot since the last time we&039;d seen each other Now he had a fashionable haircut, and he was no longer dressed in retro-gangster gear, but wearing a stylish black suit from Diesel&039;s &039;rebel shareholder&039; collection Under the jacket he had a black T-shirt with the words &039;I Fucked Andy Warhol&039; A gold chain peeped out from under the T-shirt - not really thick, and not really thin, just exactly right A siger&039;s on his feet What a very long way the security services had come since those times when I used to travel to Yezhov&039;s dacha for the latest Nabokov

&039;Hi there, Mikhalich,&039; I said

&039;Hello, Adele&039;

&039;How did you find me?&039;

&039;With the instruot any such instruive me that Sasha told me&039;

He sat down beside me on the bench

&039;I do have an instruirl It&039;s just that it&039;s secret And the co instructions when he spoke to you I disobeyed those instructions when I showed it to you And the coht afterwards, is that clear? As it happens, I&039;ain nohen I say that I do have an instrueneral always follows theer which of the lady from the equestrian complex really work for you?&039;

&039;We have many different e otherwise It&039;s a very big country&039;

&039;That&039;s true&039;

We sat there in silence for aoff the ramp with interest

&039;And how&039;s Pavel Ivanovich?&039; I asked, to ?&039;

Mikhalich nodded

&039;He came to see us just the other day He recommended a book, noas it&039;

He took a piece of paper out of his jacket pocket and showed it to me I saw the words: Martin Wolf: Why Globalisation Works written on it in ballpoint pen

&039;He said things weren&039;t really all that bad after all&039;

&039;Really?&039; I said &039;Well, that&039;s really great I was starting to worry Listen, I&039;ve been wanting to ask this for a long tiures, Wolfenson from the World Bank, Wolfovitz from the Defence Department - or maybe it was the other way around - were they all, you know, as well?&039;

&039;There are all sorts of wolves, just like people,&039; Mikhalich said &039;Only now they can&039;t even come close to us Our department&039;s stepped up to a coual Rinpoche in the world&039;

&039;Who?&039;

&039;That&039;s e call the coeneral&039;

&039;How is he, by the way?&039; I couldn&039;t help asking

&039;Well&039;

&039;What&039;s he doing?&039;

&039;He&039;s snowed under ork And after work he sits in the archive Analysing past experience&039;

&039;Whose experience?&039;