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&039;In er days I used to be keen on Castaneda And I read in one of his books that awareness is the food of the Eagle The way I understood it, the Eagle&039;s so they have instead of God I&039;m no coward, far from it But that made h the situation was rather ambivalent I was already a wolf then, it was three years since I&039;d been accepted into the pack We still had a pack in those days Colonel Lebedenko was still alive&039;

He gestured helplessly

&039;Awareness is the food of the Eagle?&039; I asked

&039;Yes,&039; said Alexander &039;That&039;s what the icians of ancient Yucatan believed&039;

What a little boy he still is, really, I thought tenderly

&039;Silly boy It&039;s not awareness that&039;s the food of the Eagle It&039;s the Eagle that&039;s the food of awareness&039;

&039;Which Eagle exactly?&039;

&039;Any And the icians of ancient Yucatan too, with all their business seuals Every last one of the you&039;

&039;How&039;s that?&039; he asked

I took his cigar and blew out a cloud of smoke

&039;You see that?&039;

He watched as it swirled and evolved

&039;Yes,&039; he said

&039;Are you aware of it?&039;

&039;Yes&039;

&039;A olf is like that cloud of ses his form, his colour and volu happens to awareness So else just appears in it instead&039;

&039;But where does awareness go after death?&039;

&039;It doesn&039;t have to go anywhere,&039; I said &039;You&039;re not going anywhere, are you? You&039;re sitting there, you&039;re s And it&039;s the same&039;

&039;But what about heaven and hell?&039;

&039;They&039;re so anywhere On the contrary, anything that does go anywhere immediately becohts&039;

&039;But whose awareness is it?&039; he asked

&039;That&039;s the food of awareness as well&039;

&039;No, you don&039;t understand the question Whose is it?&039;

&039;And that too,&039; I said patiently

&039;But there has to be -&039;

&039;And that,&039; I interrupted

&039;Then who&039;

At this point he suddenly seeet it - he took his chin in his hand and stopped talking

It&039;s really difficult trying to explain these things in abstract terled up in the words: &039;In perception there is neither subject nor object, but only the pure experience of the transcendent nature, and this experience is everything - both physical objects and mental constructs, which include the ideas of a perceived object and a perceiving subject&039; After the first three words you can&039;t tell what it&039;s all about any ood puff of smoke and that&039;s it So now he understood Or almost understood

&039;Then what do you reckon this is, all around us?&039; he asked, taking back his cigar &039;Is it like The Matrix?&039;

&039;Almost, but not quite&039;

&039;So what&039;s the difference?&039;

&039;In The Matrix there&039;s an objective reality - a warehouse outside toith the bodies of the people stacked in it Otherwise the portfolio investors wouldn&039;t have put up the money for the fil But in fact everything&039;s like in The Matrix, only without that warehouse&039;

&039;How do you mean?&039;

&039;There&039;s a drea it That is, they&039;re part of the drea there isn&039;t any "itself"&039;

&039;I don&039;t understand&039;

&039;In The Matrix everybody was connected by wires to so real But in actual fact everybody&039;s connected to the same kind of pipedream as they are themselves And since all the dreamers see more or less the same, this pipedream is also a joint dream, and that&039;s why people call it real The drea as the connection continues But once it stops, there&039;s no hardware left behind for the court bailiffs to inventorize Or any body for them to bury&039;

&039;Now that&039;s where you&039;re wrong,&039; he said with a grin &039;More often than not, that&039;s exactly what does happen&039;

&039;You knohat they say - leave the virtuals to bury their virtuals The buriers and the buried are only real in relation to each other&039;

&039;How can that be possible?&039;

&039;Take a look around&039;

He thought for a while without saying anything Then he nodded sullenly

&039;A pity you weren&039;t around to explain that And what good is it nowIt&039;s too late to change my life now&039;

&039;Yes, you&039;re really stuck, you poor sod,&039; I sighed &039;Why don&039;t you try e point in the position of holy life?&039;

&039;Are you laughing at o on It&039;s stupid, I don&039;t deny it Do you believe in God yourself?&039;

I was really taken aback by that

&039;Do you believe?&039; he repeated

&039;Foxes respect the religion of Adonai,&039; I replied diplomatically

&039;Respect isn&039;t where it&039;s at Can you tell me if you believe or not?&039;

&039;Foxes have their own faith&039;

&039;And what do they believe in?&039;

&039;The super-olf&039;

&039;The one Lord Cricket talked about?&039;

&039;Lord Cricket ay off beam He didn&039;t have a clue about the super-olf&039;

&039;But who is the super-olf?&039;

&039;There are several levels of understanding At the most primitive one, he is the messiah ill come and tell all the were-creatures what the score is This interpretation has been influenced by hu to it was also taken from people&039;

&039;And what is this central profane symbol?&039;

&039;An inverted five-pointed star The huoat&039;s head into it with the horns at the top They like to see the devil everywhere, except in the mirror and on TV&039;

&039;So what does this star reallylike the St Andrew&039;s Cross with a crossbar for the tail Of course, we have no intention of crucifying anyone, we&039;re not people All this signifies a symbolic atonenorance&039;

&039;And how is the super-olf going to atone for the sins of foxes?&039;

&039;He will give foxes the Sacred Book of Werewolf&039;

&039;What kind of book is that?&039;

&039;The general belief is that it will reveal the central mystery of all were-creatures Every were-creature who reads it will be able to comprehend this oing to be called?&039;

&039;I don&039;t know Nobody does They say its title will be a rammaton, a spell that annihilates all obstacles But all this is no end The concept of the super-olf has a trueto do with all these fairy tales&039;

I was expecting hi, but instead he asked about so else

&039;What does that mean - you&039;ll "be able to comprehend this , why do you need to understand it another four times? You&039;re already in the know, aren&039;t you?&039;

&039;On the contrary In , you&039;ll never be able to coain, precisely because you think that you know everything already But in the truth there isn&039;t anything that can be understood once and for all Since we don&039;t see it with our eyes but with our minds, we say "I understand" But e think we&039;ve understood it, we&039;ve already lost it In order to possess the truth, you have to see it constantly - or, in other words, coain, second after second, continuously And that&039;s a very rare ability&039;