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My world broke when I heard he left Seattle

He didn’t even say goodbye

The last thing he’d said to me was that he loved me

Now I Hate Love

I thought that with his absence, the wound would heal But the wound is still there It’s festered and bubbled up and grown

I gave the , stupid heart to give, and he ruined me

Well, fuck him

Next week he’s in Seattle He and hisI call theroup like thes to someone else’s—to real music Bach, Chopin, the h your body and curls your toes And if you add in his vocals

Hell, I don’t even want to talk about his vocals

People choose to fall in love because it ood Love makes them feel protected, safe Not ood Protected and safe Hating hi him means what he did toI athe woman I could have been He’s broken every dream of a future with hi, including my first heartbreak

Even after he left, all I’ve been aware of is him, and what he left me with, and what he took from me

The tickets are expensive I spend nolia But three little clicks on eBay is all it would take Three little clicks and I can go up that last notch of debt on ain, in the flesh

Totally worth it, I decide, and go online and buy two of the most expensive tickets eBay has to offer

Opening my calendar, I find the day and mark it with an X

Get ready, asshole Your Seattle concert won’t be considered a success Not if I can help it

♥ ♥ ♥

I DIDN’T USED to like black so much I liked red, and I liked blue, and soood too But then colors beganfun of me They felt too happy Too sweet Black was safe and neutral It didn’t res thatother than black Right after Dad died, I stopped trying to be anything other than what I really was I stopped trying to fit in Trying wore

I becas sinful and dark It’s a dark day, and mine is a dark life Even the sky is cloudy because Mackenna is in town In fact, there’s a thunderstorm The stands are wet The fans are wet Everyone except the band, who’s ensconced backstage until the rain stops, will be solidly on NyQuil soon

When the rain finally stops, Melanie and I hear the announcement that the SHOW IS ABOUT TO START And there will be NO OPENING ACTS DUE TO THE DELAY Just like that, the shot of vodka I had drunk in a toast to e leaves my system, and knees that had felt like they werelike jellyfish

“Stop looking like you have a gun in your bag You’re going to get us searched, you dodo!” Melanie tells me

“Shh! I got this, be quiet,” I scold her as we head back to our seats

Reaching nervously aroundMelanie behind h the crowd to our seats at the front of the stadium She looks even fatter than I do Turns out this rain was a blessing—Melanie and I don’t appear nearly as voluoods under our ponchos Goods for the band members One in particular

Even whenwet down the sides ofBlack nails, black lipstick, black poncho, black hair—well, my hair is mostly black except for a stupid pink streak Melanie dared ht, and I can never refuse a dare Still, I’h-heeled boots scream, “Men, come near me only if you want to end up without nuts!”

Melanie, on the other hand, looks as happy as a Barbie

Her boyfriend probably just fucked her brains out

Lord, why do et the horniest boyfriends?

“I can’t believe we haven’t reached our seats yet! We’re way up front, we’ll be like breathing therin