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Young or old, it didn’t matter She believed she had this power over men that made them all want to jump into bed with her I’d sit there transfixed and just a little nauseous as she regaled me with the sordid details

I hated those tilimpses into her past They ht turn out just like her It scared me so much I was terrified to even hold hands with a boy

I lived in fear of myself, because of the way people looked at me, talked aboutin uess you can say

My breasts went froht and et rid of without much success suddenly disappeared on its own Even my face looked different Smaller, more defined

It was the first time I saw the reseed in more ways than one that summer Not only outwardly but also on the inside

I started getting these urges especially in the shohen I washed between ainst my nipples I was so confused Confused, scared and alone

I couldn’t talk to mom because she was hardly ever around And there was no way I was gonna ask my friends and teachers were out Most of mine werethe seniors

The only difference is, that year I becas about h trial and error and scared out of nant

Meanwhileout of control and this only added to the fear It was right in theme more alone than before

Sheshe was there had always added some comfort

Then I was alone, no family since mom was a runahose parents never found her if they’d even tried and of course there was no name under father on the birth certificate

Everyone knew that older kids were never taken in as easily as the babies, but no one was going to adopt soe anyway so it didn’t matter