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She isn’t a bad looking woman, and I’ive their right ar to be So why the fuck…

I knohy I was testingto me and to everyone else But the shit backfired spectacularly I’d only proved what I’ve known deep down all along This shit isn’t gonna work

It was bound to fail fro on her part or e that The heart wants what it wants and o

I knew it But I guess I was having an ignorance day or some fuck when I said yes to this shit Now I’m stuck in this bullshit situation and I have no one else to blame but myself

I feel like shit because I’h I don’t love, has been a dear friend Someone who came out of the shadows in ht there was none

She smiled across the dinner table at me as we both pretended to pick at our food and I could see the tension in her, the questions in her eyes I felt al us to this point I’d wanted to avoid this; I kneas inevitable

I knew even when I was agreeing that this would be the end result How could there be any other? My heart isn’t one for so long now that I’et what she looked like

That fuck refuses to beat for anyone else but her Not that I want it to I’d give my last breath to have her back by ht there

I never think about uilt But the guilt isn’t about her, but aboutwhen I’reed to marry

That’s why I should never have let things get this far It wasthat I’d all but given up after years of waiting, hoping

Mindy is one of the people who’d been there to hold ood friend, giving so selflessly of her time, that’s why I find it hard to do to her what I knoould if we take one more step down this path