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I love the way it dulls everything but htenselse black and numb

This is where I aness, this obscurity

Coke makes it easy to exist in the emptiness

I runpowder and slide it along the skin of irl by the back of the neck I shove her head back down and she opens her ainst her willShe wants to be here

Especially now that I have fed her habit

Especially now that she can lick her habit froetting so out of it, too

“Finish,” I tell herI stroke her back while she ers

Her head bobs for a few , I come in her mouthHer eyes widen and she starts to pull away as es of her lips, but I hold her fast by the back of the neck until

“S,” I tell her politely

Her blank eyes widen, but she ss obediently

I smile

She gags, but she doesn’t heave

“Thank you,” I say, still politeAnd then I lean past her and shove open the passenger side doorIt creaks as it swings wide, evidence that cars were still made fro-eared twenty

“Get yourself so to eat,” I tell her“You’re too skinny”

She’s got the look that girls on nose candy getThe way-too-thin lookThat’s one downfall of the stuffIt’s good for drifting away into oblivion, but it’s hell on your appetiteIf you don’tlike shit

This girl doesn’t look like shitYetShe’s not uglyBut she’s not pretty eitherShe mostly looks hardenedMousy brown hair, pale blue eyesBland, stick-thin bodyI can take her or leave her

And I’ her

She glares at me as she wipes her mouth

“My car is in townAren’t you at least going to take me back to it?”

I look at her and note how there are three of her that blur into one, then back into three, before I shake the blurriness froain

NopeStill three of her

“Can’t,” I tell her, dropping ainst the headrest“I’m too fked up to drive It’s not that far, anyway It’s not my fault that you wore five-inch stripper shoesJust take them off It’ll make it easier to walk”

“You’re a fking assle, Pax Tate,” she spits angrily“You know that?”

She grabs her purse from the floor and slaer, shakes from her efforts

Yes, I naer in pristine condition deserves a name

And no, I don’t care that this coked up little bitch thinks I’ to deny it