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“You know I’ht Jasmine?”

“Don’t be ridiculous, of course I know that! Don’t get so fucking sentiue at her and stood up from the table

I picked up our dishes and dumped them in the dishwasher to put on automatic rinse

“Okay seriously, I’et to work!”

“Yeah yeah… get a move on! Eat my home cooked breakfast and leave just like that psssshhhh” Keisha said sarcastically

“I’ht babe! I told her on my way out the door

I started to walk towards the library, and like a brick wall, the depression hit ain I could keep myself distracted for a few ain, all the memories started to flood back to mythatnight I had had with James that made me so sad This could have been the man I spent the rest of my life with if thinks had worked out for us better Jaes in my voicemail, pretty e to pick up the phone and call him back Like clockwork, he would callwhen he knew that I would be finished at the library, but I had put the status to “ignore” on my contacts list so that I wasn’t te Sometiht down at the beach and would wake up wishing that he were there lying down next to otten over Greg so fast Of course I still talked to him after the break up but the emotional and romantic connection completely disappeared With James there had been no closure to our relationship, I felt like we had unfinished business but if what Greg said about hiether with a guy like that

I took a detour on my way to the library and stopped off at the pier to look out at sea to clear my mind I walked down the splintered wood of the dock until I hit the barrier at the end of it I sat down on the wood barrier and looked out at sea I ht with James in o I could still feel the sensation of his fingertips on ainst the soles of our feet, and the instant connection that we had that night He had told irl he had everwas never that ro while until I found that kind of love again, if I ever did I didn’t think I could have those feelings for soain? Next to ulls perched on the street lamp They were cuddled next to each other and I couldn’t help think to myself, that even birds had found love I kneas sis a lot more difficult than they need to be I could have stood there and spoken to Jahtor Jaet out of there as fast as possible so that I could make my own decision Three months later, and I still hadn’t come up with a conclusion

I felt like a terrible person, Greg had been rushed to the hospital that night and stayed there overnight He tried to phone me but I never answered the phone to hiood person would have been there for him but I felt so conflicted, and frankly I was pissed that he had to go about spying on us and trying to dig up any kind of dirt he could on Jaoing well still Maybe with ti He just wanted to er If that was the case, I was still utterly in love with hi said had been true? Maybe James was this terrible person thatpeople in poor co projects over top of these once poor suburbs

I looked at one by already My shift started in 10 minutes and I had better hurry if I hoped to make it there on time I picked up my purse and walked back doards the street The streets were nearly e frohway a few blocks down but otherwise I couldn’t see a soul in sight It was such a freeing feeling knowing that I was the only one there It gavecommotion in my life

I reached the library, and walked up the large grand steps out front and unlocked the door No Jas inside for me, but it was better this way Despiteeverywhere around ood job I wouldn’t let hihts today I walked to the back roohts in the library There is no other liberating feeling in the world than knowing that you’re in control of so the library co, at that time of day, it was all mine

I walked to the front and unlocked the front doors We were officially open for business for the day Coht to e bureau near the front hall of the library In one of the drawers, we all kept the books ere reading at the ti The Great Gatsby and had fallen in love with the character Daisy She had to be the luckiest girl in the world A billionaire threw these large extravagant parties for her only in the hopes that she would coh she used to be in love with Gatsby, she acted stubbornly when it came to love She reminded me a lot of ical with Jas weren’t exactly in perfect circue, a customer walked in Not our typical customer, he was dressed in a black suit, white shirt, and black tie with aviator shades It see to rent a book I greeted hiave me no response He looked like he was in a rush and he walked straight back to the cooking help section in the back No one ever went there, it was such a odd thing I thought to ht nothing of it and continued reading my book Just as quick as he came in, he left He strode up to the counter and put the book on the desk

“Just this”

“Okay, sure, so you’re not the best at cooking huh?”

“Yeah, I guess”

Obviously this man did not want to have a friendly conversation so I left it at that I rang the book through the libraries computer and sent him on his way As soon as he left, I continued to put e of my novel The library was the perfect place to relax I could lean back inat the painted arched ceilings of the building, and the bookshelves that seee pillars of this very library reaching into the depths of heaven I iot there one day, there would be an

unlimited supply of books to read and I would be able to have access to this library

Before I knew it, the suspiciousthe book under his arm he walked up to me and slammed it down on the counter

“Wasn’t what I was expecting, sorry I’d like to return it”

“Uh okay, no worries, do you want a suggestion of what to read? Maybe I can help”

“No that will be it madam” He turned his back to me and strode out the wide doors at the front, I looked out theand he was running down the steps of the library before getting into the passenger seat of a black Mercedes and driving off in a rush

What a strange fella I thought to myself

Although he probably only had the book in his possession for 30 e just in case I picked up the heavy hardcover book and leaned back in e, an envelope fell out with my name written on the front

Part of ht I should have thrown it in the garbage straight away but e encounter I grabbed the antique letter opener from the counter and tore open the crisp white envelope in one fluid motion The letter I pulled out was hand written and I i It was short, but long enough to get his point across