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Jasper

September 1

I wasn’t supposed to feel this much pain

It aches It suffocates It maddens

The loneliness that feeds the pain is sick and twisted It’s all I can think about I can taste it and hear it I’ht of the devastation, losing sight of everything I am

Twins are ether

It’s only right they leave the world together

Losingother half—has been catastrophic to , unable to staunch the flow of pain It’s overwhel

I can’t take it anymore

The sounds ofone another before the bell rings are round Another dull part of one and the color drained aith hi affects them

If they lost half of their soul, they would understand

As it stands, no one does

I’ but my pain to keep me company I don’t want this pain I can’t bear it Mo

I a the battle

It’s not a battle I care to win

While the chaos continues aroundoutproblem The bottle filled with little bite-sized, daily shots of forced happiness ether, it’s my ticket out

After class

I just need to h this first hour I’ht When I started considering what I wanted to do this suot them—there was always an excuse not to

Mos

Dad wanted soanize his albums

The elderly neighbors needed yardwork done

Then, after an agonizingly lonely summer—my first summer without my brother—I started my senior year A year Julian looked forward to so much