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It iven that I live alone in this ten- a hillside view But what people don’t realize is how freaking tiring it is to never be seen for who you actually are, only for the things you own or the connections you have It’s real da And honestly, lately, I’ve foundis handed to you, there’s nothing exciting to strive for, nothing to look forward to

It isn’t that I don’t appreciate all I’ve been given I have a great job working for my father’s studio I love et to where he is But sometimes, it feels like a curse, a shadow I can’t step out of And I often wonder if I would have been better off not taking the opportunities handed to me, if I should’ve moved away and started from scratch But I couldn’t do that to my dad He’s always assumed I would take over his role someday That’s what he’s alorked toward His business decisions are based around that scenario—to secure a spot for me, to set me up for when he eventually steps down I’m his only child

It was also hard forwith it all

My house reeked of alcohol and cologne I looked around at the fifty or so people congregating into sleep with them

Who are these people?

I could probably name three people in the entire room Everyone else was ht, half of them would be drunk off their asses inroo with—get this—a cowbell

There’s nothing funnier than listening fro in Spanish for stragglers to get the hell out of the house “¡Larguense de mi casa!”

Lorena is funny as hell and doesn’t give a flying fuck what people think of her She’s tiny, but a force to be reckoned with Her title may be housekeeper, but she’s really keeper of the house She takes that role very seriously And I appreciate how protective she is

I left the crowded living rooet e and not at the bar But instead, I passed right by the kitchen, venturing into my bedroom

When that door shut, I let out a long sigh of relief The sounds from my party were now muffled, barely audible

Peace and quiet

This

This hat I wanted

No as I going back out there tonight

It had gotten to the point that lying inthan sex with a real wo froht after I could have had any woht, and that’s exactly why I had no interest in a single one of them