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My body was his, with his breath and sighs all over With each thrust, I felt hiht state of ood The pain with the pleasure The sin of it all I surrendered every part ofto him That’s what I needed

To feel safe

To feel loved

To feel wanted

“I’et to this point I’ve been an idiot,” hethat perfect spot insidefrom the inside out He was different, but yet familiar A quiet to the storm that had become my life; the chaos that surrounded itself around me was calm and cool And it was because of him He was my safe spot He always had been

I needed this, I repeated silently, over and over

His breathing becaan to perspire, I kneas close as my core wept from my wetness for him I had my eyes closed the entire time; somehow, that made it okay, it made it easier, like it wasn’t real if htave him what he wanted and moaned in satisfaction when he bit ue intomouth

He kissed me all over, from my breasts to my neck and all over my face I al and tender gesture

“Kid,” he half-whispered into the side of my neck as he laid soft kisses “Open your eyes, let reen eyes I dreaed

I sighed and took a deep breath, and in that moment, it would seem that I was content, blissful, satisfied even The exhale being from passion and lust…it wasn’t It was from confusion and sadness I braved ht his desire and longing forthat I didn’t think I could hear…

What was I doing?

“Fuck, your pussy is a vise I’m so close Tell me what you need”

“I need you,” I carelessly responded, not knohat else to say

That seemed to appease him He thrust in and out a few an to arch off the rabbed the back of my neck to keep our eyes locked In the haven of love and co He wanted us to share the ave it to hi like I wanted it to

“Jesus…” he grunted and his release quickly followed, plunging deep withinhis seed

His forehead hovered overto find a unison pattern The room smelled like sex…our sex, and it made me nauseous

“I love you, Kid,” he expressed with genuine sincerity in his tone

“I love you, too, Devon”

And then I broke down crying

A year ago…

“Ysa…” I whispered in her ear

She peeked one eye open and s at her fro sideithup my head

“How many times do I have to tell you that it’s stalkerish when you’re watchingto play it off like she didn’t love the fact that I did this every

Ysa hated irl could sleep in every day if I let her

“Hmmm…I don’t wanna…ten more minutes,” she mumbled

“Ysa, it’s seven thirty; you need to get up The bar opens in an hour”

“The bar runs itself, I can sleep in for another half an hour Leavethe sheet over her head

“All right, you asked for it,” I warned

“Sebastian! Don’t you fucking dare,” she threatened, like that was going to stop h before she even saw it co her squirh, and yell at me all at the same time

“Are you done? You going to get up now?” I teased, trying not to laugh

“Ohher legs around

I stopped and instantly lay on top of her, holdingher in with my body

She grinned “What did you say? I don’t think I caught that part? Did you just say you hated hed and blushed

God, I loved that color on her

“Maybe What are you going to do about it?” she taunted, wiggling her eyebrows

“Oh, your s to be the end of you I think you likeoff to me just so I can put you in your place Don’t you, Ysa?”

She laughed “Nah, I’irl Maybe you should put so in my mouth to shut me up”

“I have other ideas about where I want to put so to control ? I was hard the second h

“Oh…I see…” She gyrated her pussy on my cock “We have time for that, but we don’t have time for me to sleep in?”

“We always have time for that,” I reminded

She rolled her eyes “I have to get up, Sebastian”

“It’s all right, I’m up for the both of us”

“You’re incorrigible How can you want in again? We did it twice yesterday”

“I alant in I’et in anyti“And I didn’t hear you coain on my dick” I leaned in to kiss her neck “Multiple times”

She slapped my back

“Ow!” I jerked back and she used the momentum to slide out and away from me

She put her fingers in the air in a stopping gesture, backing away, knowing that I wa

s going to come after her

“No! I need to shower, and according to you, I have a bar to run No sex,” she stated and I cockedaway

I quickly followed her into the shower and we started the day exactly hoas supposed to be It had been twointo a co to know each other in ways that we hadn’t before See…before, ere playing house; this tiether in a partnership, or at least tried to I had taken a sabbatical fro Enterprises; I didn’t need the money, I had plenty of that

Ysabelle was my number one priority

Julia still lived in Miami but moved closer to her parents so they could help with Christian when I wasn’t around She knehere I was I was coo; no more lies I had learned the hard way that they caused my own demise She didn’t have an opinion when I told herto find Ysa; it was like she was already ten steps in front of me and expected it I think she was surprised that it tookpiece all along

I did a lot of soul-searching in those two years, and I truly believed that as much as it hurt to be away froroup and evaluate anted out of life What was important to us as individuals

I had never been alone before I always had a woe years after Olivia; it was purely sexual, but it was co I did after the divorce led reen eyes that showed me the world

Divorcing Julia was the biggest mistake of my life I should have never ain, oes for Olivia…I was entirely too young to knohat it meant to be absolutely and completely devoted and entranced by someone, to be with someone that you can’t be without To physically ache in ways that you literally felt like you were dying when you were apart I thought I knew pain and loss when I lost Oli–it wasn’t even close to what I experienced when Ysabelle walked away froht at The Gala To have looked into the eyes of the person who completes you and see that you have hurt them with all your actions and possibly your words, killed me inside