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Pointingto keep er in check “The fuck I was You know darab foraway “I’ll deal with your ass later I told you this shit had to stop I have to go”

I rush through the house with Mitch trailing closely at my heels As soon as I push my way outside, I stop and take a few deep breaths in an atteather myself fro even faster now, and I have no idea how I’et my ass hoht

“I have soret co from beside me

I don’t like the sound of this I lean against the brick wall of the house and rub my hands over my face as fast as I can “Just say it, man”

Mitch leans against the wall besidehe doesn’t want to say what it is he has to tellI tried telling her that you weren’t here, but man, she isn’t stupid”

I turn around and pound my fist into the brick wall as hard as I can, repetitively, angry with ainst the wall tells s swarh my bloodstrea otherwise “What did she see,” I ask through gritted teeth “Why didn’t you wake ”

“I tried waking your ass up You were too fucked up She walked in the bedroo across your lap She just stood thereout She see, but she just kept walking,about eternal heartache”

I let out a huff and glide et in there with ht I was alone I didn’t do shit with her I never once touched her” My jaw steels as I picture Rachel’s sche hands on me This isn’t the first time she has pulled this shit

“I don’t know, dude I just went in there thisand there she was, half naked, and sleeping on your lap I didn’t knohat the hell happened, so I just left you two alone” He throws his aret involved “I’m sorry, man I think your ti point, a moment when they throw in the towel and walk away You’ve screwed things up way too ether before you end up dead and alone”

I stand here and let his words sink in as he pushes away fro the conversation I’ fuck up I’ve always been worthless Even ht so

Giving ra the wall in front ofto ooze out of the torn skin, running down ers, but only because of the wetness and not the pain I’m still numb from the pain, I always a, and the reason I’ to explain this shit to Onyx? She’ll probably be gone by the tiet there

Dammit, I fucked up

Thirty minutes later I pull up in front ofto be able to somewhat function normally Even from the street I can see a couple of her suitcases on the porch, telling me what a damn screw up I am

I stand here watching Onyx as she throws another bag out onto the porch, not even bothering to lookand I a the bile down that is rising in my throat Even I think I’m a loser at the moment How am I supposed to convince her otherwise?