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No

Couldn't go there

I needed to think ahead

I could go to the police I could do that But ere the chances that they could help? That they weren't in V's pockets? V's very deep pockets

No police

Where did that leave me?

I switched on the heat, cold October rain soaking through my thin white tank top and pink silk paja when V's iven the opportunity for a whore's bath in the sink when I was given five minutes to use the bathroom per day

So while, yes, the rain was cold and I was shivering, it was the cleanest I had been in months Months

Which was another little piece of freedom

It was aranted

Showers Soap Toothpaste Wrists that didn't constantly ache fro bound A belly that didn't concave from starvation A body without scars A soul without them

Never again

Whatever happened to me, wherever I ended up, I would ain I kne hard it ithout them

I passed through a seedy looking town And when I say 'seedy', Iwild, I was pretty sure I would have been carjacked, raped, and buried in some dumpster somewhere

I didn't stop I probably should have stopped Lost the car Found somewhere to hide Tried to make it on foot

But I couldn't bring myself to pull over

So I kept going Turning off into an industrial part of town Blue collar businesses Sohts all off Which could onlywould be open

I kept going Past soh barbed wire fences and no s And then things got rural Like rural rural

Shit

Shit Shit Shit

I should have stopped in that bad area

“Think ahead,” I reminded myself What was done was done I had to keep my eyes forward

Then

Oh od

Shit

But it was too late

Too late to react on a slick road

There was so in the street

And I was going to hit it

I sla to turn the wheel

Then I hit

It took less than one second for the airbag to deploy, sla acrosspainfully But all I could feel was the i of the car backward as it hit The sounds, sharp,over the howls of the wind and the pelting of the rain