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Macey

The stench of deep fry emanates froirls can sroom to my locker The older woer always look down on the younger girls and the newbies I’er, during ain after she was born when I hadhelped me tone as a result of all the pole work that I had to do I took some time off after that, but I always come back because the h, I say that it’s for good and that was the last tiain, knocking on Lew’s door and asking for o around here, and in this business you can’t expect toconnection with anyone

I strip down and throwas quickly as possible before the stench of grease beco and bootie shorts, add tassels toa tank top overinto an old pair of cowboy boots that I picked up at the secondhand store I have an array of costumes meant to hit the hty schoolgirlyou na it I need theolder and she’s seeing things she shouldn’t, like her grandet up to answer the door, or strange men in the house She’s ten and shouldn’t have to babysit an adult Nor should she have to live in the slums, but that’s on me

Seventeen and pregnant isn’t how I sawwith barely any food, no new clothes and the strange looks, so I swore that I was getting out I was sh school, but none of that mattered once I found out I was knocked up and the baby daddy had already left town I tried to tell his mother, but she took one look at me and shut the door Back then I didn’t want ht across the tracks, under the bridge and through the fucking blueberry bushes if it one wrong or end up with a drinking problem by the time she’s a teen

Morgan, though, she’s a good kid who loves to read and is a whiz atI have to, to make sure she has food and clothes

So I strip at night and wait tables during the day Depending on the day or night, one pays better than the other, but they’re jobs that I need I have a goal I want to hborhood One where kids want to play and not sell drugs I want her to live in a place where she feels safe and doesn’t need to hide in the closet of our bedroom because my mother invited one of her friends over

My dreaan are unreachable, I know this, but I try every day to make them happen I want such a different life for her that sometimes when I look out theof the city bus I’ the street without a care in the world, I i one of those kids If only

Waiting raphed routine in my head When I was little, I wanted to take dance lessons like all the other girls inmusic videos when my mom would actually reo to the library so I can watch clips while she looks for books

As soon as one of the other girls co Up” by Justin Moore is how I start ht off I want to be reht now I’ll play the sweet little cowgirl before the sexy librarian blows yourto the most